She Let Go


She let go.
Without a thought or a word..
She just let go.

She let go of the fear.
She let go of the judgments.
She let go of the confluence of opinions
Swarming around her head.

Peace of mind

Peace of mind

She let go of the committee of indecision within her.
She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons.
Wholly and completely..
Without hesitation or worry..
She just let go.

She didn’t ask anyone for advice.
She didn’t read a book on how to let go.
She didn’t search the scriptures.
She just let go.

She let go of all of the memories that held her back.
She let go of all of the anxiety
..that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations
..about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go.
She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer.
She made no public announcement
..and put no ad in the paper.
She didn’t check the weather report
..or read her daily horoscope.
She just let go.

She didn’t analyze whether she should let go.
She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.
She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment.
She didn’t call the prayer line.
She didn’t utter one word.
She just let go.

No one was around when it happened.
There was no applause or congratulations.
No one thanked her or praised her.
No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree…
She just let go.

There was no effort.
There was no struggle.
It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad.
It was what it was.. and it is just that.

In the space of letting go.. she let it all be.
A small smile came over her face.
A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.

~ Rev. Saphire Rose
Ernest Holmes

 

The first time I was told that I needed to let go, my whole entire body screamed NO!  Me, give up control? I couldn’t do that and I was frightened. So much had happened if I wasn’t in control, I could only imagine terrifying results. I talked to my spiritual teacher and he was really cool about it and said I didn’t need to. What a relief! But as I continues to study and meditation in a blue moon I would let something tiny go. Nothing happened. Nothing positive and nothing negative. Life continued to flow and I walked the path of my life’s journey. And  s  l  o  w  l  y I began to to go of more and more. I would come up against a wall and I would say”Ok, you try. I give this to you.” Changes began to happen. I finally realized that I could let go. My spiritual teacher passed away a short time later.

My husband had died many years before so I had a lot of feelings of being alone that I had had as a child when I was abused. Some really huge things began to happen in my life. Really big and affecting my health. So I took the biggest inhalation of my life and said, Beloved, you take care of this because I can’t. There was silence. There was nothing I could do so I waited and prayed and worked really hard to trust the Divinity within. Then  one day everything turned around and there was no longer a wall anywhere. And I was blessed. The thank you that came to my lips was but a whisper, a prayer of thanksgiving. I got braver and let go more often. Things didn’t always work out as I wished but what came to my life was good. So, now I just let go and trust that what comes or doesn’t come is for my highest good. My heart is grateful to my spiritual teacher who knew me so well. Had he pushed I would have run. In those days I could run  a lot. He knew that I would be taken where I needed to go. I am so grateful now that I didn’t avoid this lesson. Nothing grand has happened except that I know the Beloved knows the big picture which I don’t and I walk my path with an occasional slight push to keep me moving.  So I recommend that you do what you are able to and I know The One will be right there with you because we never walk alone.

Cleveland Botanical Gardens. Photographed and copyright by Barbara Mattio 2009

Cleveland Botanical Gardens. Photographed and copyrighted by Barbara Mattio  2009

               

9 thoughts on “She Let Go

  1. Oh my I immediately was transfixed on this. You wrote how letting go happened for me. I haven’t told a sole I let go. But when I read this I knew I could say I did. This is beautiful. You are right we never walk alone!

  2. Jackie Saulmon Ramirez says:

    I may be the queen of let go.

  3. tersiaburger says:

    Beautiful and inspirational!

    • Thank you. How are you doing my friend? Remember you never draw one breath alone. You are the inspiration for so many. My oldest daughter’s best friend died last year. I know her pain and I can only guess at how you feel. I am always here for you. It has been 18 years since he passed. It still effects me strongly. Hugs, I wish I could give you one in person. Barbara

  4. inavukic says:

    Letting go can be the hardest thing and wanting to let go even harder, even if it is the best thing we can do. There’s much in saying to the Beloved something like “here Lord, I give it all into your hands to take it away for I cannot…”. It does work and it does tell us we are not alone, never. Belief is so powerful and we are blessed when we possess it. Nice post Barbara.

  5. Heartafire says:

    Oh, I love this so much, thank you!

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